Get over your hill and see what you find there

[Treasur]

On that, you, me, everyone who knew him, my L and even his own L are agreed! I think only him and OW think otherwise!

I'm glad if some of my (long) thinking out loud is helpful. It helps me to know that I have already survived the worst, things I thought i might not.

I'm still sad, still bewildered by this turn in my life, still miss my friend and H. I suppose I think of myself like a widow really rebuilding my life after losing my beloved H. It will be much easier when I don't have to interact with the monster he is right now.