Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 10

[PsySara]

So a little update. I've been walking around seething inside, mind movies keep tumbling around. Meanwhile WH keeps being attentive and kind. Last night I mentioned I may have to get back on Remeron (AD that stops nightmares) and he stood very still and then asked, "Are you having nightmares about me again?" I confirmed and said obviously I still had a lot to work through. HE looked devastated and said it was obvious to him that I had PTSD secondary to the affair. He looked so sad and gently joked if I needed to wake up and choke him in the middle of the night then please feel free.

Something interesting happened inside me then, something kind of...relaxed. I think I am starting to see WH understand how far reaching his poor choices have rippled. For some odd reason that has helped me heal a teeny tiny bit. I still struggle with irritability and anger towards him but at least I am not as reactive as I used to be. DB has definitely helped me with anger management.