I have been massively struggling with the fact he has all the power now and its all on his terms, as I am so used to being the one in control.
Hmmm, that's an interesting comment. Do you think your H felt you were controlling and manipulative? Because a lot of resentment can build up over that sort of thing.
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I do think I need to take a massive step back and just leave him to get on with whatever he is doing.
You really do, you need to give him time and space and you need it for yourself too. You probably feel helpless right now, that's one of the byproducts of BD. But your life is fully under your control, it'll take a while but you'll come to realize that!
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I have been doing everything I can to keep active and see my friends and family and occupy myself, but it is still hard some days.
It's definitely difficult. It's heart-breaking, depressing, exhausting! Just keep working on you and getting out to GAL. It's the quickest way to get better, and the best chance you have of saving the M.
