W overslept this morning and forced me to have to cancel my appointment with my IC because I had to wait for her to show up and I was an hour late to work. I didn't give her any grief when she showed up. She said, "Sorry." And I said, "Hey, it happens." I didn't mention having to cancel the appointment.
Around 11:30 this morning she called, without leaving a VM. I called her back. She was upset, crying, apologizing for these most recent incidents but also for "everything". Saying things like, "I never meant to hurt you", "I've made terrible decisions", "I don't hate you", "I think you're a good person" and so on.
A year ago I would have just buckled and said, "It's ok, what can I do to make you feel better." But today I didn't. I told her that I didn't trust her. That her words requesting that we try to sit down and have civil conversations don't match her actions of barely being able to get through 5 minutes of a conversation without spewing. I told her that I'd be willing to discuss how we can communicate better at our next M&F session. I told her that I was done backpedaling every time she spews and that I'm going to start being direct about my wants/needs even if it makes her angry.
She didn't say very much to all of this, just agreed.
Next session will be tomorrow and I assume we'll talk about mediation.
M46 W48 M11 T14 S11 D8 BD: 2016/05/27 In-home separation: 2016/11/23 Nesting: 2017/06/11 W moves out: 2018/01/07 W goes public with OM: 2018/07/12 I ask for a divorce: 2018/12/14
