I think there is an element of wanting to get rid of the old life, and we're a reminder. I think there is also a drive to get rid of anyone who 'sees' them, as vulnerability is seen as dangerous. And it feels so dangerous for them to look inside themselves that they desperately search the external, and who better to blame than the person they chose to have by their side every day?
Yes, that makes sense. It is frustrating because, even if you ignore our M, I kind of what to say oh look, exhibit A: life before MLC...and exhibit B: life after. It amazes me that he can think this chaos is a better life. To be fair, the bit of him saying he'd created a horrible mess and didn't know how to unless it was probably seeing that, but it would need great courage to deal with the damage.
Thank you for the love, cadence. It's just a hard day and there have been months of hard days.
Me: 53 H:38 T:20 M:14 BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression S 1/16 PA 4/16 H filed 1/17
