Who's fault is this again? Can I forgive her?

[Irish M]

Irish do you think there comes a time where it is no longer possible to forgive? If not for yourself, because of your Ds?

I have tried to forgive. But how can one forgive someone who does not ask to be forgiven or even shows and remorse or accepting of their behavior.

If she had owned it. I could find myself to forgive. The D's will have their own forgiveness to give. If they choose to.

My current situation .. no forgiveness is needed as it will not be taken as forgiveness. It will be taken as brushing it under the rug. Forgetting about it.

myself, i decided i am now indifferent to it all. Couldn't care less. It doesn't affect me. I don't dwell on it.

everything is in her court. She will have to one day decide what she wants. until then i keep living, loving my girls and making memories that will last forever.





D15 had an amazing day yesterday. Dad48 was a little tired. lol

this week we will be kayaking with belugas and grey whales. I'll go-pro the heck out of it. We should leave for that region on Wednesday for 5 days. Lets pray the rain stays away. This summer has had its share.

So yesterday, D15 was having a great day. Went around town activities and finished at the cinema. When we got home. yup, flowers on the doorstep. D17 said it looked like someone left them on a memorial site. Just leaning on the door. D15 started to get upset.

Why does she have to ruin my day.

I told D17 to look at the card , maybe its from someone else. Maybe from my parents as they are out of town.

Nope its from her.

D15 takes them and dumps them in the garbage. Says I'm writing her

an hour later she comes out of the office. says its done.

Now i don't know what she wrote and i wont go there. D17 just asked D15 , do you feel better getting it out of your system.

D15 said YES, lets make smores outside. in which we did.

No reply from XW. none wanted.

Tuesday is birthday 2. my parents are back and I'm making my smoked ribs.
D15 will love it. It will be a surprise