WAS OR WHAT 10

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Thanks bttrfly for appreciating the difficulty of my.situation. it is no longer painful but nonetheless remains difficult. I have tried conveying what it is like on several occasions but maybe it needs to be lived to be understood fully. That being said if anyone can understand it is the good folks here.

But it's not all doom and gloom. Having "normal" aspects to our lives helps keep standing. My W contributes a lot to our home and especially our sons. They are definitely winners and even if we split now they are almost three years older and that will help them.

I also get to see her unhappiness and her struggle. This is no walk in the park for her and is in all likelihood worse for her. And yet she is still here. A big part of that is likely to be not wanting to lose half her time with our sons but even the fact that that registers is more positive than many others.

Unfortunately I don't see my situation changing any time soon. Remember a while back I mentioned my W cleared out her special occasion underwear when we redid our bedroom cupboard. They stayed for months in the spare room and last week were bagged and brought to recycling. When I saw it bagged I almost mentioned it but resisted. Sure she doesn't need them to be sexy!! Whereas it is great she doesn't want to keep them for attracting someone else, it did feel like it condemned any turnaround in the near future.