I mean that he will regret his decision and be able to see I'm not this horrible monster he has convinced himself I am. If I'm being brutally honest also that he can feel the pain he felt last time, which obviously wasn't enough, but even if it's just a fraction of what I feel on a daily basis.
I'm also uneasy about the future. I feel like what men out there want to walk into 3 young boys. I know I will be VERY picky and selective because I don't want to go down this path again. I just keep telling myself all will work out in time. I'm anxious to go home and get this ball rolling.
H text wanting to know when we would be home. I said tomorrow. He replied people from work are going for a bike ride I'm going with them so I won't be around tomorrow. I didn't reply.
My dad said he invited him to go out tonight with H and friends. My dad declined. My dad said H came and asked him 3 more times to go telling him he would have a good time. He still declined. H also sent my grandma a text asking if she would watch the baby this evening so I could get some sleep for my drive home tomorrow. Neither of us responded.
Taking the boys to an indoor jumping place. Hope they serve hard liquor lol
