He's gone for good isn't he?

[Treasur]

First of all, I'm really sorry. You've already had a couple of years of hell from the sound of it, and then this latest wound. Our emotional skin gets very thin after living with a world turned upside down.

My only suggestion is to keep posting here as you try to work stuff out in your head. Right now, it is as it is but you need time to breathe and decide what you need to do. And to figure out on your own what you think has happened to cause this and what that means for you. And what you want to do about your M. And how you move forward, irrespective of what happens, as a calmer, stronger version of you. I assume you have seen or will be seeing a L and thinking about the practical stuff, but your head is probably spinning with all kinds of thoughts and feelings.

Please give yourself time to breathe before jumping into any action, other than seeking L advice. x