Not much to report. I posted the conversations or I guess responses I gave to H over the last couple days. Yesterday I didn't hear nearly as much so I think he was getting the point of me being uninterested. He called early last night around 830 and I sent JT to voicemail. Sent him a text -'out watching the game, it's loud here I'll have them call later' I had them call and I didn't get on the phone as usual. Haven't heard a word today so I guess that act only went on for a few short days. He's so strange. One day wishing me a goodnight and glad that I'm having fun with smiley faces then the next as if we don't exist. It doesn't bother me it's just an observation.
My dad said he's still been coming to the house. He's asked my dads most nights if he wants to get dinner. My dad declines. My dad said H came to tell him to have a good day at work today before he left this morning. So strange.
MIL has been reaching out to me but I haven't responded. I let her know about H staying the night out and what not. She was upset and angry bout said it's not her place to get involved. After reading an article on CL about parents, especially the mom, of an H like mine I am going to follow her advice which is NC. It's disappointing. Evans's last BD MIL went NC with H due to his actions but she said she can't do that again. Oh well.
I feel so strange lately. I think it's because I don't have to see H or feel uncomfortable around him. What he's doing isn't shoved in my face everyday. I still think Of him but like I said I don't even know what us being together would look like anymore. I can't envision is together but I can't envisioned m my life divorced either.
I'm sure I will be very emotional once he gets served and he moved out for good because it will be the book closing. Everyone tells me I can't take him back again. That he's embarrassed me and disgraced me twice now. I'm starting to doubt myself some. Like maybe I pushed him away and maybe I could have done things different. Maybe he was only having an EA? I don't know. In my brain I know this is untrue. I wasn't monstrous and there wasn't anything crazy I did for him to pull away so hard at 8 months pregnant and buy a motorcycle. Anyway, I'm rambling at this point.
The boys are having a great time and my dad said he's going to buy a place up here for us to vacation oh and I tied a hook and baited the line for the first time today. All the things I'm going to have to learn to do now. Haha , tomorrow I'll be driving the boat by myself eek watch for us on the news lol
oh and I tied a hook and baited the line for the first time today. All the things I'm going to have to learn to do now. Haha , tomorrow I'll be driving the boat by myself eek watch for us on the news lol