Fight, you have to do what feels right. I feel like today, without meaning to, I'm kind of mixing it up. A little quiet, a little compliant, a major offensive, and then a little business to keep it interesting. I'm trying on different skins to see what feels good in terms of dealing with him. That's the luxury of no longer giving a flip about DBing.

I still have this dyspeptic feeling inside that tells me I'm not happy and not settled (and how could I be when my sweet S may be hearing we aren't moving after all). I know its naive, but I feel a seed change coming. I think if I keep bugging him he will do something. I gave him 11 months of basically no contact and got nowhere. Now I'm going to be super annoying.