Next phase: Divorce and Acceptance

[Pax_luv]

Hey guys. Thanks for the feedback and support. Much appreciated.

I think there comes a point that you just know it's time to move on and live YOUR life and maybe experience someone new. At least that is the case for me. I went on dates periodically throughout the separation, but it didn't feel right. I was too attached to ex still.

While he does still get to me, i know he's not the guy for me. My new- authentic-life is a continuous reminder of that. I'm ok with locking the door to that relationship and throwing away the key.

And regardless if his current nastiness is MLC related or not, he's always been egomaniacal. If you go back to my past threads (which I don't recommend) you'd see that I predicted this from the get go. Could it have been a self fulfilling prophecy.... Nope..... He's a scum bag.... Just didn't think he'd turn on me, except I kind of knew it was a possibility. So in a way, being open to being in a relationship is exhilarating and freeing.

So, back to dating. It's also much more fun when you have a solid awareness of who you are and what you stand for. This is something I didn't have before... I think it's because I met ex while I was still young and figuring myself out. Things are totally different now. It's that awesome law of detachment!!! I do me and you do you and let's see if we can meet in the middle, but not overlap completely.

Also, it's fun being in a position of being with people who have similar interests. <--this is very superficial and not sustainable long term, but it's nice to do things that I like to do and never could do with ex because he had sooooo many hang ups. (We could never do long hikes, go in elevators, take long drives, eat at different restaurants, etc)

But it's not all rainbows and butterflies. In fact last night, I went out with a guy (2nd date) and long story short, we ended up at the mall looking at fancy watches because he wanted a new watch. Ummmmm sounds terrible and pretentious, right?!! Well, honestly, because I didn't totally care in the first place I was completely fine with this. I just sat back, had a couple glasses of bubbly and enjoyed the experience. Meh- no harm no foul!