Not sure what I have

[Guzzard]

Nothing new really. Still trying to figure out what it is I actually want.

One day I feel in great shape and moving on.

The next day I still long for the W and the M. This would be an extra tough path tough. Not only are there R issues to deal with but also mental health....and hobby/EA is continuing to feed and stroke W ego right now as well as her best friend providing terrible advice (IMO)... she has always been such a M bitter women due to her own divorce years ago. I always felt she'd be an obstacle in ours.

I know I am not detached still.

Doing GAL, I am not initiating any contact and responding to the point, trying to stay focused on doing things for me though cleaning up some messes W left behind stirs memories.