ILYBINILWY - OW - what to do next 3

[SJW]

I typed quite a long post yesterday as the anger has subsided into what I can only describe as feeling overwhelmed with it all.

I broke down Monday night after he left and had to go to a friends. My Mum has come to stay for a few days at DO's request, she's still not talking though and if asked she just says there's no point Daddy's had a chat with us.

I struggling. This time 11 years ago I was in labour with our S, our first born and it was the two of us starting our family following our M. Today I'm sitting with a heavy heart dreading him coming back tonight as every time I see him he looks like my H but he isn't.

I need to pull myself up and get smiling. We are meeting for coffee to discuss S's Birthday tomorrow, yes I was in labour for 25 hours, the school holidays and when he will be having them and where and also the house and getting it on the market. He needs to make some time to help me with this as it is physically impossible for me whilst looking after 2 kids who are off school. If he can't won't then I will have to pay someone and it will have to come out of the proceeds of the sale.

He's staying here tonight as it's S's Birthday tomorrow I allowed it for S. My Mum is here but she has been fine with him for the kids sake but still it's awkward and all I want to do is run away. I wish I was still angry I felt like I could move a mountain last week.