Were you drinking when you wrote that last post? It is not consistent with what you have been posting and I used to do that back when I was drinking.
It gets easier, it really does, in fact I would say that a year out for me it's easy (not just easier), and is a non-issue.
If you weren't drinking, then you need to do some serious GAL. What your yearning for is companionship, and that is a legitimate feeling when your "partner" is no longer there. It helps a lot to have other people around that you can confide in, enjoy spending time with, etc. Get out with others, friends or family, doesn't matter. Invite people over for barbecues, poker, video games, doesn't matter, just insert people into your life, it will lesson the loss of your partner.
You can do this Jim, but you have to go through this, you can't skip it.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
