As a bloke we don’t tend to have a massive circle of “friends” who we can talk to about this subject and as you know family members tend to be biased against my stance.
I actually feel what WW is doing is helping me in a perverse type of way, if it’s all about dropping the rope well the way she’s treating me is defiantly helping in this regard. I’m having no choice but to stand back and evaluate my life as the direction she is going in does not involve me at all. Is it fortunate OR unfortunate to have children with these type of people (AP has 2 younger S as well) as totally DTR is impossible so I look at it as an advantage, I keep saying to myself “I’m going to get better and better each day and enjoy my life with my boys” I’m determined to show the world the best me and make her regret putting me back out there on the market.
As time goes by I tend not to focus on my situation but as we all know on here we could have gone through this and still standing for years but still these memories will flood our minds. Those are hard times and I don’t mind admitting getting emotional behind closed doors.
I am struggling with my goals at the moment as I get little opportunity to implement or understand how to implement them! • Maintaining a conversation initiated by her. • Getting her to notice me getting better and better, a “you look nice” would be amazing. Confidence is king! I MUST be uber confident in myself and smile all the time also being able to stand up for what I believe is right, no more Mr Nice Guy. • To be acknowledged when leaving, a look and a smile or a wave to me by her would be deemed a success. Only seeing her at drop-off and pick-up is the challenge, maybe a good goal would be if she was to temperature check the situation – thoughts…
Anyway thanks for being there.
Mark.
DR'ing started March 2017
Don't blow the last bridge up from fantasy island, act "as if".
