Confronted my former friend, the OM. Alost came to blows, though he was definitely the most unhinged of the two of us, which was good. Let W know after the fact since I knew she'd eventually find out anyway. THAT was an interesting convo, with her initial chief concern being WON the OM was "hurt again" by my actions. Later though the talk turned to just how effed up the whole situation is, how destructive the affair has been and how many it has hurt. This all really seemed to hit home for her. She hung her head, cried, and shook for a long while.
For me, it was both liberating and sad. I'd needed to have that confrontation for a while, but the close reminder of the destroyed friendships brought some of that old pain bubbling back to the surface.
Well, I think I may have ended my marriage by doing what I did last night. Why couldn't I just frikking let it go. I felt like I needed to do that, but I handled it, I think, really, really badly, and my timing, in terms of my MR, sucked.
Say a prayer for me folks.
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H53/W51, R-ing 4/'18
"Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires"-Sg.of Sg 2:7
"So oftentimes it happens,that we live our lives in chains, & we never even know we have the key"-Eagles III 1:3
