Finding my way out of the dark - Part 3

[Holding]

RECAP: BD in late April, 2017. Did some wrong things for about a month then started DB'ing for about another month. W said she wanted a D on 7-13 and her L filed 4 days later. I suspect OM, but W says he's just a friend. We've told the kids, which opened up a lot of emotions that I thought I'd gotten past. D looms on the horizon and seems inevitable. I've dropped the rope. I'm kind of stuck processing the reality of the sitch.