Not sure what I have

[Guzzard]

Traded another email and I can see W is focused on getting something she wants. I reviewed some of the older ones and now the manipulation is much more transparent to me.

Emails with progressive questions that lead to asking for something she wants and giving me little time to answer.

Dropping breadcrumbs of how she is doing and friendly talk with something she wants in the middle.

Playing dumb on something I want so I have to ask more than once and turning it around so it seems like she is doing something for me so I should do something for her.

Now the dangling carrots of let's get together soon... oh and we can do what she wants at the same time of course.

Make me wonder a lot. How much manipulation was actually ongoing in the M when I thought we were honest. How much is aware and intentional manipulation. How much is related to episodes vs just who she is when stable too. Has this just been her natural state all along.