Limerence and My Situation 2

[Parkema]

Hi All,

I will always fight for my M as its definitely the right thing to do, again I won't have anybody tell me in a years time I didn't do everything I could to restore my M but AS I understand your advice and am using the DR method in doing this and am getting better and better at it.

In the UK now it’s the summer holidays (not much sun but there you go) and as such as you can imagine it’s very hard to deal with any plans the WW has with my 2 boys.
Yesterday my WW and her AP/LO took both my boys to a theme park, now my W rarely goes on these types of rides and I know S10 loves to ride them so my thought was how would this be managed..? As you can guess the AP/LO took him and sat next to him whilst he experienced the exhilaration/fun of the experience, something made perfectly clear when I FaceTimed them later last night to say goodnight as usual.

Don’t get me wrong I understand that both boys are having to live their lives in this situation and are trying to make everybody happy but behind closed doors I feel let down massively!
In a couple of weeks’ time I have to face the fact that they will be going away for 4 nights as a family, I think in a cabin somewhere but either way in close proximity to each other, what really hurts is the face of my boys and how happy they were last night. They are coping with this better than I am and too young to realise that excepting the actions of their mum and what she’s done to their dad is aiding her A IMO. I don’t blame them just hard to take.

The only saving grace I can get from all of this is that eventually guards will come down and the real people will eventually show up, at the moment I feel my W is being the best she can be with him and is expecting my boys to do the same but eventually with time my boys will resent this and start to misbehave. How will the A evolve from there..?

Having just read this back maybe I'm focusing on the A too much but on this occasion it involves my children I naturally think about them all the time.

Thanks for reading.

Mark.