well I'm almost too angry to post. Just got off the phone from my L and h simply does not want to pay ANY spousal support. NO contact with our 3 children and cut off our d19 from college funding mid stride.

It's a 35 year m, but he's on the tundra making it harder to enforce court orders.

Point being, HE is what HE DOES. And it's appalling.



He is Not what I think he used to be, he is not doing what he once did. OR what I expected or planned...

It is not what we had (or maybe had b/c I am not even sure now)

but this, now is what is.

NOT important to know why anymore, b/c endless wondering is endless suffering.

And so I'm on notice that THIS is what I must respond to, and nothing else.

If that changes, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.


Not sure if this^^ helps you at all, but I see you spinning and I'm done spinning.

I'm awake now.


M: 57 H: 60
M: 35 yrs
S30,D28,D19
H off to Alaska 2006
Recon 7/07- 8/08
*2016*
X = "ALASKA 2.0"
GROUND HOG DAY
I File D 10/16
OW
DIV 2/26/2018
X marries OW 5/2016

= CLOSURE 4 ME
Embrace the Change