Guzzard, why in the world are you trying to push the D through? If you are expecting it to get you out of limbo or bring you some kind of closure- IT WILL NOT. You are not even two months post-BD, your emotions AND your W's are all over the place. This is not the time to try and ramrod D through. You should be working on GALing, detaching and giving her time and space. It's only after you've fully detached and can CALMLY reason with yourself that you are ready for D that you should push that through. It's far too soon for that yet.