I hope that you can have a dog. Pugs are so cute and they don't get very big. I think you and your D will enjoy having a pet there to welcome you home each day and it will give your D some responsibility, i.e., care and feeding.

Hang in there and I hope the PT goes well for you.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.