Feeling defeated

[sophene]

I'm going to see a lawyer today to file my complaint for the divorce. Unfortunately, it has to come down to this. No matter what I do or say, I'm getting blamed for everything that's wrong in this marriage. I'm so depressed and feeling hopeless. I feel like my whole world is turned upside down because I thought the man that I've devoted 12 years of my life would never turned against me.

Yet deep down in my heart, I have this tiny bit of hope that things will turn around. Maybe I'm just fooling myself. I don't know how to heal and I don't know how to take my power back because I'm crying all the time. I hate feeling like this because I feel like I'm so out of control. Just when I feel like I can heal from this, the things he says brings it all down.