If life gives you lemon....do lemonade

[Lana_71]

Hello
So last week was also lots of fun ... we went to music festival and we're also doing some last minute shopping before we travel back. No word from H . Except avmsg of him changing his phone number.
I am not sure why he keep doing . Some times he had been Kate on paying bills or then splitting business from personal and so on. U think sometimes he is doing it for other reasons but you never know.

Kids having fun on on multiple occasions asked if we will be going to see him before summer ends. Last summer I took them to his town and rented a place for 10 days. Don't think I can do that this year if he does not chip in. I changed the subject on every occasion saying it depends on him and his schedule.

Unfortunately they don't want to ask him or pressure him I think. They think their dad is going through depression and extremely stressed out. They think I am the stronger parent.

Well this is extremely strange how can he says he loves them then completely cut them as if they don't exists .

I now rarely think of him. Feel sad for whatever he is going through for I do believe it is unnatural and there is no way he can be happy this way completely ignoring us. Maybe I am naive and maybe he has that peace with himself but I somehow don't believe that.

I wonder if he ever will wake up or have the courage to face his doings one day fir his and kids sake. I don't see my self with him no more. And I don't see myself with any other person yet . Don't think I am comfortable with that either.