Hello all... I want to give an update to how things are going. This last week on my days off I made it a point to go out and GAL. I went out cycling, went out with friends and concentrated on doing activities with the kids. All in all it was pretty good. I put on a happy face (even when sad) whenever i was around the WAW.
I received a text this morning from her saying "Something seems off with you. Is there something you want to tell me?" I just validated her statement by saying "No. Anything specific? What would make you feel better?" She replied with "It's not about me, it's about you. You seem off. Have you reached a point where your angry with me? I feel like your up to something." I again just tried to validate by saying "I can see how you would feel that way. I am just working on myself." That's it.... My first thought was maybe she has noticed my distance and me GAL. But then the gremlins sneak in my head. Maybe I'm doing more harm than good. Maybe my frustrations are creeping out in a way i don't notice (a look, a tone of voice, etc.)
An example of my frustrations are sometimes i feel like my WAW uses our daughter as a pawn to elicit a response from me. Such as her planning activities with our daughter on one or two of the days i am home (which is the only time i get to spend with her) but i rationalize her actions to minimize my frustrations.
