I do have an IC. And yes I have blown it several times with H at work. Every day I get a bit better. I can't believe how I felt so out of control in the first few months after he left. I'm in a much better place now. And that's what I don't understand. Lol. I have even said to him that if this divorce is really wants he wants then let's get it over with so we can both move on. But he still stalemates. I bounce back from he just wants me to make the decision to he will eventually come home once he is assured the arguiing can stop. But really if he didn't come home I'd be sad but I would be ok. Today my parents came and picked me up for breakfast!! It was so nice to just see them.
