Thanks 25 You're right to be worried (about/for) me. I'm caught right on the line between thinking & feeling. Too much isolation and thinking; not enough doing & feeling. Which means I can feel my old life, feel the horror of the last two years but I can't feel the new life yet. You made me see that this is what GAL is about.
I had a suicide plan for Dec 12th. Mostly gone but it lurks. That was because I felt like I'd learned to survive but lost the ability to live properly as myself.
The bit you/me don't have to worry about is me changing my course now because my STBXH wobbles or whines. I've had enough of WTF. I know the difference between words and actions. I don't trust anything he says or does. Above all, he can't build what I need next - only I can.
Will report back in a week
Me: 53 H:38 T:20 M:14 BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression S 1/16 PA 4/16 H filed 1/17
