WAS wanting to move across the world - help

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Thanks Btrow - maybe it does smell a bit like pursuit, should have thought it through more. I definitely didn't need to facetime that time, it was just because I wanted to see where she was as she was being so evasive and out of character on the texts.

Anyway, had friends round to the house with their kids (mutual friends of both of ours, including the woman who is very close to her again).

Kids had a great time. It was a little awkward as the women, who are both friends with my wife and in her "texting circle", were clearly uncomfortable around me which made me feel awful.

I kept a smile up and made sure everyone had drinks and food, perfect host. The kids had a great time.

And now, the down of the evening, all alone as the kids go to bed.

I'm not having a great weekend.

I'm struggling not to call her up and tell her I miss her. I know I won't and can't, but the urge is really there.

I'm going to trust the advice of others here that this does get better, because I really aint seeing that so far!