it's rainy here today and this morning the ONLY reason I got out of bed was for coffee.
The ONLY reason I went outside in this dreary day is b/c I have a dog who insists...
had a gross dream about OW (and in my dream I was sort of warning her and also blaming her).
Ugh...
I make forward steps and then SLIDE BACK...and time marches on. I don't want to wake up at age 60 and still wonder what happened to my life.
No more "waiting" for h to finish training/come home from work/have free time/wake up/change/return.
So I'm making a short list of goals and adding structure to my life. That is what I need.
You, T3, have plenty of "to do" things on your list so in a way I envy your activity level & very much envy that you have your children around. You are overtly needed by most of the people in your life.
AND you may feel trapped or limited with 3 small ones, which I also understand.
Ultimately, you will arrive at a crossroads, and you'll have to choose to move forward or not to.
If you choose to move forward, some of your thought patterns will need changing, and that won't be immediate or consistent, but it will lead you to a better path.
You are not alone on this path.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
