T,
When I woke up this morning, the first thing I did was check to see if you had checked in. I'm so glad you did. It's amazing how much we grow to care for each other in this forum.

When I read your post, I just cried. It's pouring down rain outside, and I just had a little sad party for all of us who feel like you do. Believe me when I tell you, you are not alone in feeling like you've been dealt a crappy hand.

Here's the thing though. We can either choose to keep crying, or we can have a good, cleansing one, then put on our high heels and get back in the arena, building a better life for ourselves, even if we don't feel like it. I feel sad today too. And that's OK. For a rainy day like today. But at some point I have to choose not to let that sad become my normal. We CAN'T allow our Hs to take up this much space in who we are. We are so much more than that. We've been kicked in the teeth, but we are still OK. We are going to be fine, even better than fine. So let's take some deep breaths, and dig deep, and find some gratitude. I'm going to start with being thankful for the community of friends and support we have built on this forum, and the people that care enough to hound us until we check back in.

BIG HUGS to you today. We got this.

M-60 H-51
M-14 years
BD 12/26/16
S 1/1/17

"First the pain, then the rising."
Glennon Doyle Melton