Sorry, wasn't ignoring you all. Thank you for your concern.
Really just needed to take a break from here, and well everything really.
I am not feeling I am a good DB'er and really feel very frustrated and hurt with my life and what it's become. I want to scream at the top of my lungs about what he's doing and that it's not fair (yes I know life isn't fair) but I am a good person and took my vows seriously for better or WORSE. I've supported him through good and bad and this is how I am repayed... he treats strangers with more respect than he treats me. I get it, everyone here gets treated like this. I am just angry, hurt, sad, frustrated, etc. My boys don't deserve to be put through this a second time and our new baby doesn't deserve this either. I just wish he could be a different person. I see him texting 200-300 messages a day with these women that haven't given him 3 children, haven't slept next to him for 13 years, haven't seen him through the good, bad, ugly etc. He hasn't seen some of these women for 14 years, the other women he hasn't know for more than a few months yet I'm so easily replaced. EFF HIM!
Anyway, so yeah there's my poor me. I'm still here.
Thank you all for worrying about me. I hope that I will get past this one day and accept that this is my life. I don't want to be here.
