I totally agree but the problem is I'm getting tired. If there wasn't an OM I'm sure I would be way more open to it. I really want to R but just the way OM shows off their relationship pisses me off. If I didn't have a descent job he would be picking his teeth off the floor. Also I'm stuck on this cruise thing. Its in the teens of September which is our wedding anniversary. I just keep telling myself that that's it. Enough is enough. I've bent over backwards to make this work while she's b@nging another man on our anniversary.
I do see a little progress in our line of communication but its just ridiculous. She talks to me when she's at work or OM is at work or when she needs emotional support because of her family problems. I do GAL but you still have those thoughts pop up. I was happy she wants to talk more but now I'm faking it more and more now. When I think about her its more of me thinking she and OM are just trash.
So with what you said prior, you still think its a bad idea to go dark? I mean I know Im seeing a little bit of results and this takes time but its taking awhile and rage is consuming me. I would like nothing more than to whip his a$$!
Sorry for sounding aggressive, the disk thing in my back has got my mind off track since I cant do much.
M 1.5 years, her affair was before 1 year T 7 Years
