Thanks all for stopping by, sorry I've not posted we've been really busy. I reached angry last Friday when H didn't attend S's last day of primary school and angry is a much better place than where I was. Yes I am still heartbroken and hurting but I am managing it better. The next wave was him telling the kids and he had already got an inkling by that point that I was detaching from him. I know his aggression towards me is his own guilt he has admitted that when he is lucid and reasonable and then just attacks me again. I am also managing this better and telling him that none of this is my fault and he needs to stop taking it out on me then ending the call or conversation politely if it continues.
DO has started to talk and write her feelings down. She wrote him a letter today which is very astute for an 8 year old. She told him that she knew that it was his choice but she didn't like or understand his choice when Mummy has a snazzy new haircut, lol (I had my hair extensions out yesterday and my hair cut shorter than I've had it for about 15 years).
The way I see his sitch currently is he's on a boat on the rapids with OW and it was new and exciting whilst he had me as his life jacket. I have removed the life jacket this week and he is now panicking. I still want my H and my M but currently that is not an option so I am working on me and the kids and having fun with friends he turns up when he turns up and does the odd temperature check which I don't respond to. I am nobody's back up plan. He's allegedly working this weekend so we should have a peaceful one and he's told the kids he will see them Monday.
AS don't worry I have a solicitor and everything he is doing is in his name and I am fully protected.
SJ
Me 46 H 39 M 11 T 14 S 10 DO 8 ILYBNILWY 11.06.17 Separate rooms 11.06.17 ILW OW A ongoing 12.06.17 Kicked H out 23.6.17 H came home 20.8.17
