most of what Blu raised with you was about the recent text exchange wherein you wanted to blast your w for politely responding to you. I read the whole thread and I'd have given her an A-, (and you, not so much...)
And you wanted to blast her some more. Like you felt restrained by holding back a little. And then you told us she's a cold b1tch
for how she reacted to your requests, which I would never have responded to as well as she did, btw.
Then when Blu raised this with you, you brought up issues from the past with a long grievance list. Ugh.
That's not what was asked of you. Btw, no you are not detached.
Nor do I think you are ready to file, but you are also not ready to DB and so you remain apart and uncommunicative. And stuck. You won't approach her, and you won't move near her, (I know you say you moved there b/c you wanted to do so 8 years ago, but that just isn't resonating with me as the only reason)
Telling your son that you were going to file seemed really premature to me,
so is your pride making you cornered a bit?
All I mean to say is, file if that's what you want. And Don't file b/c you blurted out things you think you cannot retract from
b/c for all we know, that's where your w is.
You say you literally don't know if she's even seeing OM now, or joined a convent or worked on herself.
But if she does have regrets and did want to reconcile, you have not kept the road home, smooth and paved. It's one thing for us to make piecing include the work it should, (& I did not)
but it's a whole other thing to make reconciling harder than it already is. Don't make it impossible.
Please consider what is being asked - about how you are handling things in the present.
is there any part of this^^^ that sounds like something that happened inside your m?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
