Yesterday had a real good session with IC, she gave me some good feedback on what I am doing and how I handled telling the kids, made me feel good that I didn't screw up too bad. Met my S17 at the gym for a good workout and I continue to notice attention from other women at the gym which boosted my confidence that I may be OK regardless of what happens. When I got home I interacted with my S13 and D11, they are both still sad and seem still lost in what has happen but at least I didn't cry in front of them! Trying to be strong, my kids are worried about me if I will be lonely, I just tell them that I won't because I have them. WW entered the house, I got up from the chair and welcomed her, said hi and asked her how she doing, (this is a 180 from how I had been in the house pre BD) It was met with positive feedback and then that was it. Later WW took a shower got ready for bed and then I guess I wasn't paying attention but she told me she was going to bed and she slept in the MBR??? I just figured that since she slept in D11's room the last 3 nights that is the new normal in the house. Looks like I need to talk to her and let her know that this is the marital bed and bedroom and since she doesn't value the marriage anymore she needs to sleep somewhere else! Advice on this????
Today a sister in law from WW side reached out to me as she just found out about our sitch. She wanted to know how sad she felt for what has happened, she is the first person from her family that has shown any compassion yet. SIL and I had become good friends over the years and wanted me to know that we will always be family and I could reach out to her if I ever needed to. I thanked her and let her know that I didn't want this and there was more to the story than what she has been told, I probably shouldn't have said that but I am tired of looking like the bad guy through this. I love my WW's family, I have known them for half my life and they are dropping me like a bad habit and I am having a real hard time dealing with it. I guess I will need more therapy as I am still a mess, I sometimes hate the fact that I am an emotional person, my wife used to love the fact that I was like that! Oh well, keep working on myself! Kind of all over the place, that is what I feel is going on in my head, just kind of circling the drain that seems to be blocked at the moment.
