Big text convo with W last night. She came out and asked me outright if I would ever consider moving to where she is. I told her no, maybe during my retirement years (20 years from now).
She is making herself sick with worry about everything. She's panicing that I will find someone new and forget about her and D.
What a 180 from how she was acting right after she dropped the bomb.
When she's texting me this stuff, sometimes I start to get mad. Perhaps this is how the WAS feels when the LBS starts making changes that are deemed too late?
I definately can see her trying to get me say and/or commit to things that will make her feel better but I refuse. My job is to take care of me and I keep my cards close to my chest.
But that doesn't negate the fact that I really miss her and I do still love her and D.
I'll keep moving forward in the meantime. I know that healing isn't a linear process. Sometimes I will feel really good and detached and other days I will feel down and out.
