Lol feels like I'm talking to myself. But that's ok. It helps to come back and see how far I've come or not come. And what I still need to do in my life. So H and I had a new convo today. He was going on about how I was always argumentative and what not. And I validated. And he said pretending everything is going to be ok does make it ok. And I said I'm not pretending. I can agree with lots of things that you have said I have done wrong in the past. And some things I won't agree too. He said why would he come home since nothing has changed at work. So it will be the same at home. Everything the same. So I tried to explaining why I was upset. But I did a lot of validating and explaining that I have said things in anger that i don't actually believe. We even talked about memories and reminisced about some things. Over all I thought it productive. I learned some new things that he is still holding grudges about and upset about.
