Sandi, I'm not angry with you. I hate online dialogue because it lacks nuance and context and body language, etc. I AM stressed in general and a little on edge, yes. I also thought you sounded a little "I told you so-ish" and seemed to focus on that ONE thing... but maybe that was largely a function of the shortcomings of web dialogue I noted above. Anyway, I very, very, very much appreciate all the effort you put in to trying to help me and the others on these boards.
Today's update. After feeding kids, I went out last night, didn't say where I was going. She was laying in bed, crying on and off, praying with the rosary her grandmother had given her (or at least appearing to do so... she was holding it). I came back at 9:00 (well before our usual bedtime, thinking I could lay claim to the MBR) and she was already asleep, she'd fallen asleep with box of tissues and with her rosary. So again i slept in Guest Room. Today is her early day at work so she was up before me and left. She texted me twice and called me twice. Second text was about plans for upcoming college orientation this Thursday/Friday for my S18. So I answered her third call. She wanted to know if we were leaving W night to stay over (college is about 2.5 hours away) and I said "yes, S18 will be staying in the dorm, I got a room at the __________ hotel. There are still rooms available if you are going and want to get one for yourself.) Loooooong silence. "Could I just sleep on the floor?" Me: "I dont really want to share a hotel room with you." Silence. Her (kind of meekly): "Umm, okay." More silence "I really wanted to talk to you last night" ME: "I'm not really interested in doing any more talking right now." Her (pushing through): "I wanted to say that I really, really f**ked up big time. I made a phone call yesterday, said i couldn't talk to him anymore... that I needed to figure things out with you." Me: "Okay, is that it?" Her: "Yeah, I.. I'll see you later." Me: "Bye". I kept a level tone of voice the whole time. She was not teary or anything, sounded like maybe she was trying to "joke it off" with the "can I sleep on the floor" comment, and sounded almost cheery (maybe not.. I'm just projecting I think because Im ticked off) when saying she'd called OM, like "this will make it all better". I just kept thinking to myself "really?" It almost sounded like "I can't talk to you until I have gone through some stuff with my husband, but I'll be back" rather than "I can never see or talk to you again." I can only imagine what the conversation actually was. Wouldn't surprise me if it were "Hey, we have to lay off for a few weeks because he's on to us again." No word about her extra phone.
Grrrrrr....
H53/W51, R-ing 4/'18
"Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires"-Sg.of Sg 2:7
"So oftentimes it happens,that we live our lives in chains, & we never even know we have the key"-Eagles III 1:3
