Leaving it up to God (but still interfering!)

[Coly23]

Journaling: After my text to H asking if he forgot about increasing my monthly bills money I felt a bit weird like what must he be thinking about me asking for money? So I went back to him and said that even though we have asked for some financial support i don't want him to think that I needed him to be responsible for us in any other way and that me and D are doing good. I did say that although we would still love him to be in our lives again we just want him to be happy. He responded and said that he was glad we were doing good.

I know you will all be rolling your eyes at this but I really just didn't want him to think I was being needy. Me and D really are doing okay and I just wanted him to understand this. I also told him to have a good summer but he didn't say the same back to me :0(. I sometimes get the impression that he feels pressured to see us so by saying this I think I wanted to get across to him that we aren't expecting to see him for a while.

Another thing I don't understand is the whole leaving his stuff here. I don't know if you all remember a couple of months ago I told him that I hoped he didn't think I was holding his stuff hostage. Anyway to cut a long story short he did come by and picked up all his suits but just tidied up the remainder of his clothes in the baskets in the wardrobe. Now I understand Job when she said that some people just don't want their stuff from the past but if that is the case why not just bag them up and chuck them? If he is using me as storage well he just moved to another apartment so should he not have taken this into account? We were away for 10 days and he has a key so he could have come by again and picked a few bits up.

I am now think that maybe he is using me for storage and is waiting until we he has the opportunity to suggest selling the house and then he will move his stuff. It makes me mad!! Sorry, just venting!!