Trying to detach from WTF world

[Treasur]

Actually just read this post by 25 in another thread. I think this is where my head and actions are, and why I see the D as being a good thing for me, MrCAS. My heart misses who he was, but even my heart doesn't want to be married to a self-destructive liar, a thief and a cheat who lacks the courage to own his own s**t. I'm sorry that the man who loved me unravelled into this, but being sorry doesn't change the reality of what he is now.

"Our choice is pretending to be married to an unstable dishonest cheating man- or to divorce him."

Our M wasn't perfect - whose is? - but tbh, we never got the chance to even look at that because he imploded and ran away. The WTF mess is his responsibility. Our M is a shared one. And no, I'm not thinking about reconciliation. I just can't see it as remotely possible from here and even thinking about the effort involved is exhausting. I'd rather miss my H than deal with more MLC WTF from who he is now. But I do miss him and I am sad about what has happened. NC helps a lot which is why I said no to his recent 'chatting' plan!