Trying to detach from WTF world

[Treasur]

2x4 appreciated, MrCAS. I know my M is dead. I know my H is not the same man. I know he lies and cheats and steals.

Sorry if I gave you the wrong impression though. D was his idea. He filed. He has never said it was mine, just failed to engage with his own process and whined about how it has made him more 'ill'. I have not responded to that other than via my L saying that his health is no longer my business. I have no idea what he thinks or feels about anything. I assume he lies about everything. I think the process is forcing him to see some reality about his own actions and consequences that he doesn't much like, but I don't spend time thinking about it.

I am past the stage where the word 'divorce' makes me gulp with shock. I can do the logical D thing. My weakness? I miss the man I knew (but I know he's dead). And I am still sometimes horrified by the WTF chaos the new version has made of his life and mine. It is a horrible mess (but not my horrible mess).