seems that today she was not as up as on Sunday. alot colder attitude but still friendly. I got every thing loaded in the truck except some yard tools and an air pump, the hose and a few minor things along with the hot tub. I refilled the tub and conditioned the water so she could us it. Since I will be moving to a new home she said I could leave it there for another month rather than moving it to a storage shed (for $350) then moving it again in a month (for another $350). Thing is, my new home will also have a hot tub so I really don't need it or have a place for it.
We did go to lunch and have a good time talking and when I was getting ready to go we got some more good hugs and kisses. but she feels that some time apart is needed so she can see if she really wants that or not.
In talking with her tho I got the impression that she desperately wanted us to get back together but did not feel that she could forgive herself enought to let it work. Until she is ready to forgive herself, even if we did get back together, it would not work.
I will give her her space and be there for her. she told me a few weeks ago that we should have about 2 months of no contact and then maybe get together for hot wings (one of her favorites) and see how it goes. When I left today, I told her that when she felt like she wanted wings to let me know.
Good point is that even tho she was not as upbeat today about us, she did give me some good hugs and some really good kisses. about a month ago when I was hugging her and we started to kiss she pulled away like it was a turnoff. so even though she is down some from Sunday, the down level is not near as far down as last month. I like the general direction.
NOW for some other news. I now have a written contract on buying the home and my loan was pre-approved. need to get the inspection and the apprasial done then the closing is tennitavely set for June 11 @ 3pm.
looking forward to getting into a bigger place with enough room for my woodworking tools (not that I would actually use them) - (sometimes I wonder if I am a amature woodworker or a tool collector?)
Oh - BTW I am going to Destin this weekend with the singles club were C & I met. C told me today at lunch that she had a dream last night that she went with me and we were in the king size bed (like the 2nd time we wend down there). Also, when we came back from lunch she looked up the info on the internet about the trip and said "only 3 more spaces left to Destin". I told her that I would love for her to come with me but that I think that if she did we should be in seperate rooms. She said that I should go alone and enjoy myself and that she should really just let me go. Interesting?
