(((Pax))), sending you hugs. It diesn't get easier does it. Next month would have been my seven year anniversary too. Last year I spent it sobbing all day this year, who knows.
Your H is a coward if he hides behind his front door when you exchange the dog. Next time maybe you should call out - "yoohoo, any one there!!!"
Your doing great Pax, in fact it sounds like you had a lucky escape!!!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
