Trying to detach from WTF world

[Treasur]

I'm fine with the D paperwork and seeing it as a process to get some financial stability actually. My L is tough but calm, and I'm being the same. My H is acting like an idiot, of course. Tbh, his responses are more as if I had filed out of the blue and he was trying to drag everything out... No idea what he's thinking. As MrCAS says so wisely, not worth the speculation really. I just deal with the facts.

The paperwork that upset me is other stuff, but it is still a shocking reminder of what a great loving team we were until this stuff started brewing in my H. I just miss him and miss being on the same team, but it hurts because it feels like ancient unreachable history. But at the time, it was just normal and rather lovely. Seeing his handwriting (which bizarrely has changed too in MLC - who knew?) hurts. It is like he is dead.