Welcome sophene, Sorry you have a reason to have found this site, but if you will come here and journal about the things your impulses tell you to say to him, rather than actually saying them to him, it will help. And believe me, we've all been there, in knowing how hard it is not to contact them, and just sitting praying that text will ding or phone will ring.
Your time will be better spent by focusing on you and your children right now. There are many good people on this forum who can encourage you on a daily basis. Post frequently to keep your story near the top, and you will get more responses that way. Also go into other people's threads and read their stories. That is very helpful with not feeling so very alone right now.
And I see your location is Atlanta, so if you need a real, live hug, I'm not very far away, just right over in AL. Hang in there!
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton
