Rough day with the kids. I tried to spend it with just being around the house and watching TV with them. S10 asked lots of questions that brought me to tears. S14 occupied himself on the computer all day and didn't want to talk. Neither of them want to move (we had this house built for us) and I'm not sure I can afford the house alone.
At one point W came into the MBR when I was laying on the bed and looking at my tablet. She asked if she could set right next to me to talk. I said I preferred if she sat on her side of the bed. She said never mind and walked out.
W tried to engineer 2 "everyone" events for the family today. The first was a trip to the local water park again. I declined that, and it ended up not happening anyway because of the weather. So then W said we'd all go to the movies. I told her I didn't want to go, and S10 tried to talk me into it. He told me he would do anything he could to stop this from happening, and that really broke my heart.
W spent all day moving everything of hers from the MBR to "her" room. She completely cleaned out the MBR closet and bathroom. She took all her clothes out of her dresser. She did this in front of me and the kids, and it really upset them. It's like she was trying to rub it in my face. She even made a point to tell me she'd cleaned it out so she didn't "bother" me in the morning.
When W and our sons left for the movie this evening, it was so hard to just sit there and let them go. I felt so alone. I'll have to take the boys to a movie myself to make it up to them.
Me-47,XW-43 S13,S16 M:18 BD:4-23-17 W filed:7-17-17 (5 months of in-house separation hell) W moved out:1-6-18 D granted:2-15-18 Decree signed:3-29-18
