But I still can't shake the feeling that I wasted my last 8 years, they were the pivotal years for me to have a child (I won't have another, I don't want to be retired with a child still in school).. Knowing what I know now, I wonder if I would of left her upon finding out she was infertal. Wow, these are dark thoughts I'm having, but I am having them just the same. I didn't leave her, my desire to grow old with her far outweighed my desire to leave her to start a family... Now I have neither.
This resonates with me. I find myself wishing i never met her , that 12 years of my life now just leads to feeling of regret.
Its a phase. I have to recognise that despite being separated for a year and now divorced the feelings of loss is still fresh.
It will go away. It has too.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
