Crying is good for the sole my lovely and it gets rid of unnecessary salt in the body, lol. Seriously though you are having a little bit of a down day and we can all have those. You have been through so much but focus on how much you have learned from it. Cliché I know but what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. You sound like a very beautiful compassionate woman and 53 hell that's the new 33 you bagged a younger model why not go for an older one who will spoil and adore you or let's just give it a wide birth for now.
Hope you feel better tomorrow. I will try to catch up but summer holidays start so I'm children bound.
SJx
Me 46 H 39 M 11 T 14 S 10 DO 8 ILYBNILWY 11.06.17 Separate rooms 11.06.17 ILW OW A ongoing 12.06.17 Kicked H out 23.6.17 H came home 20.8.17