Journalling

Detaching is a very funny process. The logical bit of it is easier once you get past the first stages of shock. The action bit of how you respond to texts etc gets easier and you train yourself (with help from wise folks here!). But the emotional bit is hard...time helps, not seeing them helps...but it is still hard. Maybe it's a connecting point between LBS and the MLCer that each exists in our heads as who we were...for us, that's a place of love and care, for them, something to be afraid or suspicious about.

I feel as if, if I lose sight completely of who my H really is/was, I will detach so much that I will let his MLC rewrite my reality too. But if I don't detach, I'm denying the current reality. Gah..


Me: 53 H:38
T:20 M:14
BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression
S 1/16
PA 4/16
H filed 1/17